Lawton spent some quality time with Katrina on 106.3 The Bone Portland, Maine on August 10th 2011. Check out the interview and songs she played. it takes about 25 minutes so feel free to download it and listen at your leisure.
It's been a long road to get this CD done. I hope it is something Van would have been proud of, I know we are!
I wrote this song as a bit of an autobiographical peek into the mind of a kid who's life was / is out of control due to the actions of his / her parents. Lyrically the song pleads for relief from the torment. Musically it screams..... fuck you, I ain't takin' this any more!
CHILD
Turn out the lights Close the door I don’t want to be here Anymore You keep me in Away from the light I sometimes fear you But not tonight no What about the children Don’t blame the child no Broken promises Broken home Broken dreams broken heart And broken bones yeah Pray by night Cringe by day yeah Hit me one more time and I swear to god I won’t take the pain No more What about the children Don’t blame the child Father can’t you see how I reach pulling desperately May I enter please have you room for me Mother tie me down take, take away, take my dreams I’m your baby boy and your killing me Father can’t you see that I tried to be what you need Got no room to breathe, Got no room to breathe here Father can you please oh, Father can you please oh, Father can you please
NEVER Forgotten bargains, that’s all you’ve left to me You never were the kind to care about somebody Who didn’t meet your needs Somehow I failed to provide you something But what that was I’ll never know Well maybe I should have been the one to bleed (chorus) All the memories I wish I could forget Of the life and death that I regret I won’t say never Ever again I felt your breath on my face as you whispered goodbye to me Was I right to let you go how could I keep you awake when you cried for sleep Sorry I didn’t believe That night you screamed at me When you said you couldn’t go on The pain was too deep I said you’ve Never done it before And you never will (chorus) No All the memories I wish I could forget Of the life and death that I regret I won’t say (chorus) No no Never again
My good friend Bill Francis and I developed the original concept for the verse in Testify years ago. I finally put the rest of it together but the melody of the lyrics were inspired by Bills outstanding guitar playing and song writing abilities, thanks bro!
Testify I want you to know Why I’m here today It’s not like me to say these things I fear that I must say The words are hard to find But I am here to testify Yes the sun will rise No matter what we do But nothings gonna change until we Find a way of breaking through The words are hard to find But I am here to testify Testify I told you You’re so cold you Can’t seem to let it go you’d Sell your soul to tell your lie But it’s my time to testify Forget you I won’t let you Leave until you pay your debt You’d sell your soul to tell your lie But it’s my time to testify It’s my time to testify It’s my time The reasons stay with you The blame it stays with me I may not be the one you want But I am the one you need The words are hard to find But I am here to testify Testify I told you, you're so cold you can't seem to let it go you tell your lie, but you know why I'm gonna testify forget you, I won't let you leave until you pay your debt you tell your lie, tell your lie I'm gonna testify it's my time to testify it's my time
WHAT YOU WANTED In the morning Will you still feel the same When I’m gone Will you remember my name Will you be Waiting patiently Forever and a day Forever (chorus) Can it be the same for you Considering this is what you wanted me to do Take the blame ‘cause after all it lies with you With you I did it for you It’s always for you All the times I left you alone Just don’t seem right But I’m not comin’ home Will swear to me You will love me still No matter where I go or what I do I know your wounds will heal (chorus) This is what you wanted This is what you wanted It’s what you got (solo) Can it be the same for you Considering this is… (chorus) Is this what you wanted Me to be
SHUT MY MOUTH Don’t come rollin’ up on me like you got something to prove I know you don’t like me well guess what I fuckin’ hate you too It’s been a long time comin’ yeah it’s here The time is now (chorus) Fuck you fuck them fuck everything I ain’t bowing down Fuck you, fuck them, I’m done with all of you Step up, be a man C’mon and shut my mouth They told me everything you said And I know it’s true I can’t believe you used to be my friend And one of the crew It’s been a long time comin’ Yeah step up Let’s throw down (chorus) Fuck you fuck them fuck everything I ain’t bowing down Not to you Fuck you, fuck them, I’m done with all of you Step up, be a man C’mon and shut my mouth C’mon and shut my mouth Come and get it (solo) You came to the wrong place mother fucker (chorus) C’mon and shut my mouth C’mon and shut my mouth Step up and shut my mouth C’mon and Shut my mouth, shut my mouth, shut my mouth
UNFINISHED (Van’s Song) There’s a brave new world Outside my door I’m not afraid Any more I see the lights Callin’ me back home And it’s alright My friends you won’t be alone And I said (chorus) Oh lord, please don’t take me yet I’m not afraid But I’m not finished Here There’s so much That I will miss about you all Remember us And no more tears will fall You all have broken Oh into my heart And I will walk with you No matter where you are And I said (chorus) (solo) And I said (chorus) And I prayed Oh lord Please don’t take me yet Even though I’m not afraid There’s so much unfinished Here Unfinished, here Unfinished, here unfinished
